It’s not over

It is past six months since my beloved has left, and today it feels as though the pain I knew on day one of her being gone seemed easier to contend. As God led her to sleep I had to begin waking up. Two years of my life was dedicated to caring for her during …

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Deconstructing Tracy

This was supposed to be a full book. As I am currently home with Hospice care for stage 4 cancer I'm uncertain as to whether or not I'll be able to finish, and publish. So... without further ado, I'll publish what I have done right here, right now and will add chapters to it as …

Stage Four

I've always been blunt, and my humor has always been kind of dark. It's just the way I am. It's how I've coped with life since I was a kid. I am not about to change now. This is not a fun blog post for me to write and I don't imagine it's going to …

The Thorn

I wanted to share a scripture today - it's one that's become so important to me lately. Back in March I was diagnosed with colon cancer (there are spots on my liver and there's an ovary involved too. Surgery is just not an option) and have been going through chemo treatments since late April. This …

The Legend of Crazypants

I wish I could take you all with me on a trip to the Enchanted World of Property Management. Just for a day. It's a wild ride. Like a suburban safari through the land of insanity. Today I would like to introduce you to someone we simply refer to as Crazypants. Crazypants came to live …

Pooooooor

I grew up in affluent Fairfield County, CT. We were not one of the very wealthy families in the IBM town, but we certainly never lacked for anything. My first experience of LACK wasn't until after I'd moved out of my family's home at a pretty early age. There were times in my life (I'm …

Simplified!

So, I'm home about 99.9 percent of the time now. The whole cancer thing. It sucks, but I'm still refusing to sit on the cactus life handed me. I am on a new chemo cocktail now and it's harsh. Sometimes I'm puking before the pump comes off on day 3 of treatment week. It's no …

Places of Magic

There are places in this world that are just magic, for whatever reason. For me, bookstores were such places of wonder and magic. I miss bookstores. I know they still exist out there but the magic seems to have dissipated. When I was a child I used to go to the Ridgefield public library a …

Downesbury Haunting

I grew up in the affluent New England town of Ridgefield, CT. My parents moved there in the mid 1950's when land there was cheap, and they built a house. This was shortly after they got married and didn't have kids yet. The land they built on was once part of a 300 acre estate …

Criminal Masterminds – Trailer Park style

Fourth of July. My husband and I thought we'd go out for dinner with two other couples we're close friends with. It's my non-treatment week so I feel pretty good. We picked a place and a time and to our surprise, the restaurant was closed when we got there! So we tried a second, and …